This is a bit embarrasing(and not just for the spelling and grammar errors). so unles you are Laura, please skip this entry.

Just a letter of regret really. You remember the movie 'Flatliners', well you would be the person who haunts me and I have to somehow reconcile with before I move on.

Laura(sorry I can't remember how to spell your last name) you were a sweet innocent camper, I believe from 1984 or so.  You had the biggest crush on me 4th session when I was 19-20yrs old and you I guess 15-16yrs.  So nothing happened!!, except maybe some prolonged stares. Until some years later when you showed up at Mary Washington College.  I was a Junior I think and older than most cause I didn't start college until a few years after high school.  But here was Laura still cute and still with the crush, and now legal game.

Sorry to put it that way, but this has got to be honest for it to matter.  We hung out and were pretty envolved and then suddenly for reasons only explained by the cruelty of my male ego, and heartless testosterone driven idiocy, I dumped you.  Without any proper conversation I just started being cruel to you.  You had become a part of my dorm room life, hung out for the parties and put up with all my roommates crazy crap.  You did nothing wrong except fall for an immature college guy on some kinda drunken quest for popularity and acceptance. 

Anyway my roommates and I were outspokenly mean and spiteful to you until you had to transfer to another College.

I can only hope that the memories of that year are more important to me than to you.  Hope you don't ever even think about me.  But my fear, and my biggest guilt, is that I used my personna at camp to win you over at college and your memories of Chanco and what it means could be tarnished due to me.

20 years, maybe along time coming for an apology, but maybe you find this site,    I am Sorry.